This is for my Sarah Beth. An account of her daily adventures and discoveries.

It hasn't been a good and happy week here.  We're trying the potty training again and it is NOT going well.  Sarah will absolutely not use the potty.  I am at my wits end.  I thought the 4 months of severe morning sickness was bad, I thought the severe post-partum depression was bad, I thought the endless, sleepless nights were bad but this has got to be the worse thing ever!!!!!  I spent the weekend cleaning up accident, after accident and Sarah gets so upset with herself for having them and we try to reassure her enough so she doesn't become totally tramatized but also try to make her understand that she has to really try to make it to the potty and let us know when we need to help her.  Her teacher says she's making friends at school but all her friends are in the class with the kids that are potty trained.  So, she gets upset when outdoor playtime is over and her friends go in one classroom and she has to go in another.  I've tried explaining to her that once she uses the potty all the time without an accident she'll get to move to the class with her friends.  We've tried offers of prizes, & offers of treats.  We've bought the cute Dora panties and Disney Princess panties.  We've tried letting her run around naked but she doesn't like that for very long and wants clothes.  I've even started taking away favorite toys after she's had an accident.  Last night I kept her in panties all night long.  She woke up dry.  Great!  I put her on the potty while I made her breakfast.  Nothing, ok let's keep going along.  I fed her breakfast and she drank her juice and after 10 minutes or so I put her back on the potty.  Nothing, not a drop.  Her belly was bulging and if she stood up she's start dancing around.  I know that can't be healthy for her.  She held it in until we left for school.  I put a pull-up on her for the car ride there because I didn't want her to wet the car seat.  (It's so hard to clean up)  I asked her teacher to put panties on her for the day.  Sometimes she says she's scared of the potty and I tried to get her to explain but she doesn't give me any kind of answer that I can understand or makes any sense.  I'm at a loss, and I feel useless and worthless.  I know it's not my body to control but I feel like there is something more I can do to help her understand and get through this.